My only friend is this fly zigzagging around my room. Our relationship is troublesome. I don’t think it likes me very much. I don’t like it very much either.
When I was younger, there were times when I pondered the meaning of my existence, as though I was entitled to a purposeful life that I could someday write in a book and share with my bright-eyed offspring or grand offspring. And then I learned a reason for not pondering that insipid notion. That meaning, which is more useful to me than any existential philosophy, is less of a precise definitive and more of a semi-vague ideal that is more worthwhile than my upbringings of believing that we humans have a connection to the natural world and with that a rationale for our existence. We do not live in a natural world. We are not entitled to a life of luxury, purity, or bliss. We are but a product of scientific chaos, a semi-explainable coincidence of the right atoms at the right time. Therefore, I have deduced that whatever I do, it should be in an antagonistic motion towards those people/power structures that affect other people that I have known to be worthwhile human beings, yet who have suffered from the effect of oppression, poverty, or any underlying negativity of power relations. I have witnessed too many of my friends who deserve a life not shackled at the wrists by their jobs, not to be subjected to a secondary gender, and not to be estranged because of the color of their skin, to wither away under the pressure of societal strain for the sake of an economics that does not benefit us or due to a product of our national historical oppression. It is because I have some basic education of our history and of our methods for a socially structured world that I feel that it is imperative that I devote my life to this cause, and because I have discovered or contemplated very few ways to positively structure a means of reversing this phenomenon without disestablishing our current system of order I have resorted to the process of rationalizing the exertion of “by whatever means necessary”. My analysis entails of no other hope for any sort of change unless this rationale is more commonly adopted and utilized. My summation for this post is that those who do read this, which I doubt many or any will, is that I hope that those who will, will take heed of their social conditions, will acknowledge that their way of life is not only not beneficial to themselves and the others that they know, but not a necessary function for their survival or living or whichever noun they wish to achieve, and that as long as they do not isolate themselves from their peers, they will never be alone and their sentiments as well as their actions will not be in vain. Only together can we dismantle what we hate to make what we need, and only together can we bring what we want us to be into full fruition.